building blocks

Tonight I feel like this life of mine is coming out of balance. I have for so long balanced every little thing. But, tonight I feel everything falling. It reminds me of one Sunday morning when I was in the toddler room at church. I would make this really tall tower with blocks and the moment it was done the two toddlers in there would knock it over laughing.

That's how I feel. And, it sucks. I mean it was a really good tower. I had living with my parents balanced with a new early morning job that changes all the time, balanced with trying to figure out the Lords will for my life, with me time. with Jesus time, with meals with family, with finding community in my little time, with everything else that one would have to balance in this time we call life.

And its starting to fall. But who is knocking it over? Is it someone in my life? Is it me?  Is it Jesus?  If its Jesus then I guess its a good thing. If its me I don’t think so, better get it all balanced again.